wow I haven't wrote in this for a long time, but eh... my only complain space that I will use... no one really reads these you type anyway...

I am doing rather shitty... lately I have had nothing but bad luck in almost every way... I have had a rather shitty life so far... I am rather depressed over many reasons... sometimes I feel like a tool to others.... and other times I feel like a low person that shouldn't even be living... *sighes* I'm not sure what to do with myself right now... so far I have hit a low blow in many ways... soon I'll be searching for a job.. maybe thats why I'm so upset, or perhaps I'm just feelng upset and lonely... I have felt rather lonely lately more than one way but I sapose thats my fult and no one elces... I know I shouldn't even be complaining about this shit at all... and I am tired of complaining and pulling other people back just because I have my problems... I apologise to everybody that I've complained so much to but sometimes I can't help but vent... but I know everybody has there own problems... I love you all that have listened and I guess this stupid rant is over...